The dance of Death
Oct 31st, 2008 by rebekahshaman
Hello Fellow Seekers on the Path of the Unknown
Tomorrow is Samahain, all Hallows night and the New cycle of the Pagan calendar. With the new moon energy in Scorpio only now beginning to wane, the energy this week has been intense.
Tonight I went to a five rhythms dance class to get back in touch with my body and dance out some of this energy. During this new moon in Scorpio I have become more aware of my own mad mental processes. Now I am actually catching myself as I snap at one of the kids or Carlo or beat myself up because of something I have said or done. Before the mental thoughts used to just over power me and I was powerless to stop reacting to them. Now I am able to stop myself and act differently.
This has been really liberating. I am actually responding rather than reacting to what is happening outside of me. After practicing Vipassana for fourteen years and working on this for many more, I am finally realising that it has all been a process that has its own time and pace. The meditation has helped and my awareness has helped but what is really creating this shift is the commitment to the goal of finding peace and harmony within.
So today I went to dance death and release that part of me that is no longer serving the person I am becoming. I am letting go of the self-doubter, the critic, the part of me that always thinks the grass is greener, or other people are more luckier than me. The part of me that doesn’t see all the blessings and magic that is in my life.
I am ready to accept it all. The good, the bad and the ugly!! Cos I am seeing that it is all a blessing, it is all good, even when it feels and looks bad. All my burdens are now becoming blessings, I just had to be patient enough to allow the magic to unfold. And it is this that I find the most difficult, patience, and yet without patience I will never find harmony.
So I danced the dance of death and surrendered to the butterfly that is emerging…without the struggle, without the resistance, without the fear. I am actually having fun!!!
Love and blessings
Rebekah Shaman